iamGUCCI

was freaking bored in sch today.
supposedly tot i wld finish my report by 6 plus, in the end, i finish before 4.
and just got nowhere and no one to look for. patricia was quite shocked that i actually said i duno where to go after sch. cuz normally no matter wad time i finish my lesson, i'll nv say "I'M GOING HOME." seems as though like i'm always heading outside.
=.="

so tried my luck to ask secret affair.
cuz she's always freaking busy with MR MARTIN. =)

luckily tat boy was on duty tonight. LOL.
and finally i saw da infamous MARTIN.
LOOKS ARE DECEIVING can. =)
anyway, went to eat our beloved prata at PRATA HOUSE.
and i saw tat sissy working again. my god. he's reali gettin more and more sissy.
and i reali cant stand the way he behaves. haha..
we ordered as liitle as we could already. it's like sharing THREE PRATAS can.
and initially both of us were very hungry. (yes, i finally felt the hunger since tat day)
but the moment i start to eat, i felt full can.
reali dunno wad's wrong with my stomach. give it food, but it kept on rejecting.
den again, i waste my money. SHIT.
everyday im like wasting money on food. =.='

anyway, suddenly got da urge to go J8.
to visit my beloved HD.
okie. MISS JOLENE TEO. my main purpose of going there is to SEE and LOOK for YOU can, not because of CHUCOLAT.
u know my mouth always dun say the CORRECT thing. =)
though it's been a long long time since i've seen everyone in J8, but it's just so great to see everyone still doing the same thing HAPPILY.
yes yes yes. i finally saw CHU-CO-LAT.
wooh-oh!!!
been really a long time since I've seen him. and idiot. forever cant see his face. always covered with his long long fringe. i wonder how he's going to survive when he goes NS soon.
hahhaah..

and u know wad. it just happen tat both jolene and secret affair were born on the same day.
and these 2 telepathy people, i felt so scared just to stand in between them can.
it's like i dun even need to open my mouth and BOTH of them knew wad i'll say.
so scary sia.
hahahaha....

wadever it is, just felt that today was reali the day.
the day when im finally not thinking abt all those things.
i mean i still tok abt it, but whenever i see all those long-lost frens, those things just get out of my mind. though it's oni for awhile, but at least i felt gd.
especially together with jolene and secret affair. everytime with the both of them, i can just continue my crap.

at times, i'll be thinking, "am i living for myself? or for the sake of EVERYONE??"
because whenever some things happen in my own life, i'll just collapse, blaming everyone on myslef. collapse for my own sake.

everyone told me they miss my cheerful side.
i know. but sometimes, can just let MISS GUCCI LANG ENG XUAN emo a bit?
very sad to know that im living for the sake of others.
hahahaha..
WHATEVER~


fren: suffering from cough again?
G: isnt it obvious? and i think it's worse den the previous.

fren: so... are u sleeping well?
G: ermm...

fren: are u eating well?
G: ermm...

fren: is it because of HIM?
G: ermmm... i guess so. im not sure.

fren: GUCCI, why are u torturing yourself just because of him? it's not worth it u know?
G: fren, i myself oso know it's not worth it. but u cant expect me to force myself to eat when im either not hungry or no appetite rite? i try to force myself to sleep, but the moment i close my eyes, in my mind there's nothing except those stuff. and i kept on waking up in the middle of the nite. so pls dun say im torturing myself. =)


i think im dying soon. maybe suffering from TB.
hahaah...
where in the world got people kept on coughing out blood?
or maybe. i'll die of excessive loss of blood.
LOL. still can laugh huh??
=D













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