iamGUCCI

my blog's gettin more and more EMO huh??
hahaha...
wadever~

these few days didnt went home as early.
just wanna hang out there till it's time to go home.
making myself as tired as i can whenever i reached home.
having insufficient sleep.
not because i dun wan to slp.
but I CANT SLEEP.

it's like i slept at 2. i woke up at 7 plus.
den woke up so early got nothing to do AT ALL.
if tat's the case, slp for wad.

den my appetite.
gosh, greatly reduced.
and i'm so glad i went to shit today.
cause i think there's nothing for my stomach to digest at all. LOL.
not because i dun wan to eat.
but partly because of my cough.
everyday, or should i say, every time.
i can cough till sth come out.
blood. vomit substances, phlegm, etc.
i know i know. it's getting worse and worse rite?
i sld see doctor rite?
but den again, IT'S JUST A COUGH.
its not as though i've fainted or wad rite?
and i haven die yet. i wont die of TB so fast. =)
but just took my temperature.
god. it's 37.7.
like again?!!?!!
where in the world have someone who keep on having fever after just a few week?!?!?
wad's wrong with the weather nowadays?
i didnt even go anywhere except mongling's house can.
$$%%$!$#!@$


was talking to huian and maybelin last nite.
while on the way to yiling's chalet. bus journey was freaking long.
and we reali dunno why in the world we stepped out of our house in the 1st place.
anyway, tok abt guys once again.

one lose the temptation for guys.
one desire for guys.
one hoping for guys.
......
wad can i say??

"aaa... why not i help u la? i oso ask steven to help me too. help u and derek...."

at tat moment, i admit i did tot abt it again.
but den again, he and i are in 2 different worlds now.
he may be the perfect one in my eyes, but in reality, he's not.
no longer. no matter how perfect he is, he is still just DEREK.
the derek tat i used to know.
it took me so long just to accept the fact tat he is just my fren.
so pls, dun make it happen again.
unless FATE give the permission to do so.

wadever it is, TIME is all i need.