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mongling. huian. maybelin. secret affair.
everyone says it's so sudden.
everyone says it's so random.
everyone says its unfair to me.
these few days of crying, i guess u girls know wad happen rite?
it's hard to just forget about everything.
it's hard to get over things so fast.
guess this is the time when u girls see me cry constantly.
the moment i see all of u individually, i just cant control my emotions.
third time to let huian see me cry.
sorry, girl. yest's reali not my day. thigs happen too fast and i cldnt get it.
and i've been keeping it at heart for a few days, so when i see u, i just suddenly felt loved.
and mongling. didnt cry the moment i see her.
but still cried in the end. i tried to ocntrol, just like wad u wan me to do. but i cant do it.
everytime, come to think of all those memories, i just cant seems to forget everythinh.
especially maybelin. she didnt even know wad happen and was freaking surprised to me break down in front of her. i didnt even say anything and all i get was a warm hug from her.
tat's too warming and i broke down more.
got to control my tear glands i guess. need to save some for FOW/FOC next yr.
i dun wan to turn blind first. =)
and secret affair. wanted to tok to her first. but she lost her voice. and finally today i cld hear wad she's toking. and the moment i heard her talking to me, emotions just came in.
she's the only one that told me,
"why u wan to control ur tears? keep on controlling for wad? dun u even feel worse doing tat? because u keep on controlling, tat's why u're still feeling very worse and still cant get over it. there's no familiar faces here, no one will look at u, so just cry out loud if u wan."
tanks huh??
=]
but whatever she said was quite true. at least going all the way to sengkang just to meet her wasnt a futile trip.
at least today was the FIRST day i finally crack a joke.
just felt tat finally i'm back to myself for ONCE. at the moment.
it is sudden. TOO sudden.
just like one day, or maybe a few hours, after happiness.
and i was told of all this.
it's unfair.
but come to think of it.
i cant blame anyone except myself.
myself for being selfish, reckless and not understanding.
thanks for everything. u girls are still the best. =)
everyone says it's so sudden.
everyone says it's so random.
everyone says its unfair to me.
these few days of crying, i guess u girls know wad happen rite?
it's hard to just forget about everything.
it's hard to get over things so fast.
guess this is the time when u girls see me cry constantly.
the moment i see all of u individually, i just cant control my emotions.
third time to let huian see me cry.
sorry, girl. yest's reali not my day. thigs happen too fast and i cldnt get it.
and i've been keeping it at heart for a few days, so when i see u, i just suddenly felt loved.
and mongling. didnt cry the moment i see her.
but still cried in the end. i tried to ocntrol, just like wad u wan me to do. but i cant do it.
everytime, come to think of all those memories, i just cant seems to forget everythinh.
especially maybelin. she didnt even know wad happen and was freaking surprised to me break down in front of her. i didnt even say anything and all i get was a warm hug from her.
tat's too warming and i broke down more.
got to control my tear glands i guess. need to save some for FOW/FOC next yr.
i dun wan to turn blind first. =)
and secret affair. wanted to tok to her first. but she lost her voice. and finally today i cld hear wad she's toking. and the moment i heard her talking to me, emotions just came in.
she's the only one that told me,
"why u wan to control ur tears? keep on controlling for wad? dun u even feel worse doing tat? because u keep on controlling, tat's why u're still feeling very worse and still cant get over it. there's no familiar faces here, no one will look at u, so just cry out loud if u wan."
tanks huh??
=]
but whatever she said was quite true. at least going all the way to sengkang just to meet her wasnt a futile trip.
at least today was the FIRST day i finally crack a joke.
just felt tat finally i'm back to myself for ONCE. at the moment.
it is sudden. TOO sudden.
just like one day, or maybe a few hours, after happiness.
and i was told of all this.
it's unfair.
but come to think of it.
i cant blame anyone except myself.
myself for being selfish, reckless and not understanding.
thanks for everything. u girls are still the best. =)
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