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it's meant to be a happy day out with the girls.
but it seems like, the moment one left.
emotions flood in.

memories of being in TP first came into my mind.
how wonderful life have been for the past 3 years.
how i get to know all those interesting people in school.
how popular i was in school for a period of time.
how pathetic i was a loner in school too.
all kinds of UPs and DOWNs.

god make it a point that there'll be a farewell to things in certain period of one's life.
FOR SURE, this seems to be one.
memories are meant to be kept in mind.
but at times, just thinking of all those memories, it really makes one just so emotional.
not EMO.
=)

in primary and secondary school times, there wasn't much of emotions.
due to immaturity.
but now, at the age of turning TWENTY soon. i supposed i've grown up.
grown to someone who learns how to cherish others, and making their lives much better than previously.

then it was valentine's.
was talking about Derek and Teck Hui.
was so glad that Derek ask me to find him for lunch should i went back to school next time.
i'm real glad and happy.
i really really realized that being friends with him NOW is so much better.
both worlds are not the same anymore.
he's just a FANTASY.
as for TH.
haven't seen him since that day.
initially, nobody mentioned about him at all.
cause we know that i'll be living in my own world again, if his name's ever mentioned.
but walking down the road along BUGIS, looking at the food court and the pavement outside starbucks.
it kept me thinking back.
back to those times when we're still friends.
friends that always meet up for dinner and talking all kinds of stuff.
and back to those times when we're still ...
up till now, in my mind.
everything's only about those happy times that we once had together.
but i just can't understand, why he could only see the negative side of it.
i'm not blaming him for anything.
cause i still think i'm to be blamed on.
isn't it foolish?
trying to fake in front of ONE SELF.
thinking that everything's perfect now.

was thinking how happy i might be if things didn't turn out that way.
i thought i've learned to let things be its way.
but it doesn't seems that way at all.
he's still hurt, MAYBE.

both are not happy at all.
then why? why in the place should it happen?

"in life, everything's worth to try AGAIN and AGAIN. so don't give up so easily."

this was what DR. MATTHEW SIM told us today.
BUT.
what if you're not given another chance to try again?
does that means i've to give up?
does that means it's worthless to try again?

i wonder if HE still ever visit THIS PLACE.