iamGUCCI

"can YOU bring me to this place ONE LAST TIME?"

call it the emo period of the month or whatever.
just that, it just happen that things always love to happen during the period of my PERIOD.
so before my PERIOD comes, PMS/EMO BUG comes first.

TWO months passed just like this.
so fast. so soon.
to some. TWO MONTHS make a miracle. makes wonders.
thought things will be much better now.
but it doesn't seems like.

waking up everyday seems like a frustration now.
tried to wake up late everyday, hoping that time will pass faster this way.
it DID pass fast.
but not fast enough to take away troubles.

thoughts of HIM keep flashing through my mind.
EVERYDAY when i wake up.
i tried not to think.
i tried to avoid it.
but it just like to come into my mind.
if that's the case, how in the world can i ever forget about everything.
how long more do i still need.

how can HE just forget everything so easily.

"IT'S BEEN THAT CLOSE.
dump everything down, and leave her alone."

i pretend nothing happened whenever this period of the month comes.
pretending i don't know anything about him.
pretending things are back to normal again.
pretending life pass faster now,.
pretending all those smiles and laughter.
give me the job of a CLOWN.
i'll make sure i can be the BEST.

but what is all these for?
to show HIM that i'm happy with my life now?
to show HIM i'm much better without him in my life now?

then i think can just forget about it.
cause i can't do it.





















you know, how much i wanted to tell you,
things will only be better with you in it...