HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAE, MR TECK HUI!!!
=)

lookin out of da window last nite,
was pourin heavily as darkness fall.
reminds mi of da dae when i played under da rain.
seems as though im crazy to others,
but they didnt see da tears tat dropped on da streets.
cuz RAIN and TEARS are the SAME.
being sick of all those probs n stress these few months,
guess it's tym to let go of everythin.
but.. it's IMPOSSIBLE.

since da age of i-duno-when, guess i've oledi lost TRUE SELF.
as in, da true self of me.
dun even no im living for wad at tat tym.
wierd huh? a young little girl, still studyin in pri sch, oledi duno wad she's living for.
maybe becuz since young, noone close was beside mi. those tat i tot was once close to mi were not living here.
but as tym passes, realized im living for others.
for da sake of OTHERS.
no matter how unhappy/emo/stressed i am, so long as i see smiles on other ppls' faces, turning their frowns to smiles, i'm be contented for everythin.
and becuz i oeldi duno which one is da real mi,
i assumed tat da one tat always take tinks easily, happy-go-lucky, chatterbox, outgoin, sociable, etc is da REAL ME.

no matter wad ppls sae abt mi, i'll jus gladly accept them.
they sae im fake at how i treat pppls. YA I NO.
they sae im not a girl. YA I NO.
they sae im fake at EVERYTHIN. YA I NO TAT TOO.
i accepted all these facts cuz i no it myself. and i no at bottom of my heart,all tis are UNTRUE. CUZ THEY DUN EVEN NO MI TAT WELL. and since i no they dun mean wad they said, wad's da pt of holdin grudges againest them rite? =)

but im glad tat i chose this side of me. =)
isnt it nice?


MISS GUCCI LANG ENG XUAN IS SO FAKE.

so may i no,
HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE COMPLAINED ABT MY FREAKIN SHORT HAIR??

pls do raise up ur hand. i guess out of 20 frens, 20 will raise up can. LOL.
and i no u ppls miss my freaky long hair. but u no wad?

WAIT LONG LONG den. mayb 10 yrs ltr?? =)
but i guess, my hair's reali gettin shorter n shorter and SHORTER since da beginnin of da yr.
so scary huh?
haha.. but i do miss my long hair. =.='

okie. RECAP okie?
for those who've known mi for long long tym, or mayb since LAST YEAR.
u ppls sld see da difference rite??
=D



JANUARY.
LONGEST oledi. trust mi.
ermm... not reali january, but u no la. i went taiwan ard tt tym. so.. =)


FEBUARY.
cny. ya i no. im wearin sth call DRESS. =.="


MARCH .
if oni, my hair's like becca's. i tink i'll rather commit suicide. LOL.


APRIL.
CUT.


MAY.
at ZOUK. da UNGLAM title came in..


JUNE.
CUT again. my STINGAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argh... i reali miss tis BADLY.


JULY.
gettin longer. but still lookin great. and most imptly. YOUNGER.
=p


AUGUST.
CUT one more tym again. da SHORTEST i ever cut.
da most stupid act i ever did to my hair. =D


SEPTEMBER.
when i had 2 gfs and ghost suddenly. when i look like SHIM.


OCTOBER.
still tryin my best to make it LONGER.

wait. jus wait. i'll cut it again in DECEMBER.
sick of ppls callin mi BUTCH. wth.
anyway, since da dae i cut tis hairstyle, i see some light.
as in how ppls will look. esp. GUYS.

befor i cut this hairstyle, guys will like, "HI, can i no u??", etc,etc.
den when i cut it, all of them shunned away, as though im havin some strange disease. make mi feel so sick.
but u no wad? i dun even care.
cuz da oni approval i need frm guys are my brother and my dad.
they tink it's COOL and STYLE, okie??


when u've got long hair, they were like, "WA... tis girl CHIO till da max man!!"
but when u've got short hair, as in DARN SHORT ones, they were like, "eee... tis girl look like butch."

these are those TYPICAL GUYS.
those tat always look for BIG EYES, LONG STRAIGHT HAIR, FAIR SKIN.
=.="
sometyms jus feel like slappin them straight at da face.

been feelin wierd these few daes.
was it REALI becuz of ...?
was it jus another INFATUATION again?
or was it FATE's playin a fool wit mi again?


i still hate FATE sooooooooooooooooo much.

I'm holding back the tears
I'm trying to lessen the weight of my heart
Walking To a place that is neither close nor far
Where a different me's standing
I will not cry


wher's my entertainer whenever i need him??
or mayb. he's jus like mi NOW.

wad if ONE DAE, ONE FINE DAE,
my blog becums like tis:

todae i took bus to work, den at work nth happen.
den after tat took bus to bugis to eat. and lunch was ...
work was okie okie oni till 6.
after tat went out wit frens to town. rushed a cab down cuz i was freakin late.
and walked over to taka to eat dinner. dinner was ... and it was superb!
den walked ard town till 11pm. saw who who who and who. after tat, took a bus home. slept in da bus too.
den washed up and here i am BLOGGIN.

i tell u, tat will da dae when i close down tis blog.
hahahaha..
even when im typin out tt whole para, i feel so boring can!
it's like, do u need to tell da whole world all those useless details.
like DUH~~
of cuz take either bus/train/cab or walk rite??
den wad? took a PLANE/TELEPORT??
FUNNY AR...

its like, so summarized tt i jus cant stand it. or mayb, all my frens dun wrtie their blogs like tat. i rather tok on TOPICS and INTERESTING DETAILS tt happens.
if i were to read tis kind of blogs, i rather click da CROSS on da TOP RIGHT HAND corner of da screen. =)

met up wit teckhui, maybelin and jy last nite.
ya. i no. TECK HUI again.
wadever~~ =.="
i was being cheated by him to cum out anyway.
he sae he got sth to tell mi, in da end. ya he told mi SOMETHIN called "NOTHING".
to tink i was being kept in suspense for a whole dae. IDIOT.

some sense knocked him i tink. he actually becum so gentleman to pull da chair for mi to sit at da resturarant. LOL. nowadays, he's been complyin wit mi most of da tym, no more quarrelin. NOT FUN. hahahahahah.
BOY. dun try to compare mi wit ALICE. she lives in WONDERLAND. but miss gucci lives in REALITY.

wahhaahaha.. okie.
NOT FUNNY.
penguins wavin at mi oledi. =.='

maybelin n JY joined us later. JY told maybelin tat he miss mi like mad, tat's y im being forced to meet them. i didnt no ther's actually ppls who will miss mi till tat extent. lol.

anyway, i jus feel darn cheated at yest's meet-up.
like one told mi tat he got sth to tell mi, in da end ther's nth. den da other 2 wanted to meet for dinner, in da end oni teckhui and i ate at da restuarant. cuz JY's a vegetarian n i forgotten abt it totally and see kwee tan ate in sch oledi.
okie. wadever~

tok all kinds of crap. and my fone gave mi alot of surprises can.
haha.. okie. not alot but 2 is enough.
anyway, one of them is i intiated da sms 1st. but wadever he sent back kinda of shocked us. =]
like finally, after 1 yr plus, he finally see her true colors.
i mean, im not being mean to sae things bad abt her. im NEUTRAL towards her.
but u no, jus somehow, dun feel she's da rite girl for him.
im gettin more n more curious to see how he look like now without tat BIRD NEST. LOL.

for da FIRST TIME, i actually feel funny/guilty to sms him in front of someone.


and mongling finally DECIDED TO GO FOR OTC!!!!!!!
WOOH OH~~~~~
it's like, YEAH!!'
we didnt waste our saliva for nth. =D
hopefully, probably, we'll be in da same empire. =)

have to left early for hm, tanks to my mum, as usual.=(
feel so bad to leave teck hui alone wit maybelin n da rest.
u no, the feelin when u're not very close wit da ppls. WIERD.
but i guess JY did entertain him wit da "red tank" story huh??
hahahahah..
da super duper long story tat i fell asleep when i 1st heard it. =.="
and i didnt managed to see MR NIC CHONG!!
i miss those CHANTING DAYS~~
can i have it durin OTC?? =)


sorry boy, didnt reali help u much last nite. maybe i've pass tat emo bug to u. =D hopefully everythin will be alrite huh? wher has tt HAPPy-GO-LUCKY character of urs been to? =)

Previously in da mornin, im jus freakin pissed off.
but after a salad lunch break, guess those veggies took effect huh? LOL.
sorri if i sounds darn vulguar in it. i supposed IT IS. =D
anyway, it's becuz i was browsin thru my old blog.
ya la. as usual rite? but it's not as thuogh everydae i'll browse thru can.
it's like once in a few months.
and i jus love to look at those random fotos tat other ppls and i took.
LOL.

tis's da oni foto tat da 4 of us FIRST took. hahah.
i no. it's darn darn UGLY and UNGLAM can.
but jus tink. we're oledi in da camp for 6 daes oledi and tis foto's taken on da last dae. so of cuz we look... CUI.
=p

anyway, was jus ownderin how in da world did da 4 of us becum so close.
u see ar...

all of us dunno one another INITALLY.
was introduced to HUI AN thru RACHEL. cuz they're were in da same empire as freshies and i always meet up wit rachel for jogs durin lunch breaks.
YA. MISS GUCCI used to very healthy and always run in sch okie, when she's in YEAR 1.
=.="
den get to no MONG LING cuz we came frm da same empire as freshies again. jus tat im frm workshop n she's frm camp. dun ask mi why. but we jus can CLICK. haha. mayb... XEON ROCKS!!
=)
den MAYBELIN jus pop out of nowher. REALI. cuz she didnt went for any camps/workshop at all. so tat was her 1st TPSU camp.

we didnt reali tok or hang out much after OTC. cuz u no la, new birds like to socialize so much tat they dun even who's who.
den came FOW/FOC.
AGAIN, out of nowhere, da 4 of us stick like GLUE, togehter wit jeanie n xueyun too.
den ppls always see us in pairs.
MAYBELIN n GUCCI. MONGLING n HUIAN.
and soon. we became famous. tanks to da high exposure and popularity of CENTIS.
hahaha.. or mayb our leadership's so gd tat most of our freshies joined us under SU for those activities cumin after tat.

but it seems like da 4 of us jus like to be. THE 4 OF US.
no other ppls cumin into tis group.
when sch reopens, everyone's busy wif their own life, seldom meetin up.
and it becums, HUIAN n I. MAYBELIN n MONGLING.

and den. FATE knocked on our doors when we went for OTC for da 2nd tym.
YES. we're in da same empire SURPRISINGLY, due to some conflicts from some PEOPLE. (you no who.) =)
tis tym rd, it makes da bonds between us even stronger.
but den for FOC/FOW.
mongling PS us. i'll forever rmb tat! LOL.

but den i still forgive her for PS-in us becuz of my bdae present tat she gave.
it's jus so TYPICAL of her. tink oni she will be da oni one to cum out wit tat idea. make mi darn darn touched and cried and make da other girls darn jealous tat they dun have for their bdaes. luckily she's not ther to see mi, if not it'll be like 2 girls crying over a bdae present. LOL.
(sorry ar~ mongling sae tat idea can oni do ONCE. so she do it for mi oledi. =D)

den we still met up time n time again.
but it's always not da FULL FORCE.
it's either she or her who will PS last min.

DEN!!!
on 3rd AUGUST 2007.
met up wit huian to CUT MY HAIR. (ya. da BUTCH's hairstyle tat i'm havin now. =.=")
and jus wanna try our luck to ask da other 2 girls.
surprisingly, mongling sae "OKIE! i'll cum now!"
so i call maybelin. and den!
"i tink abt it 1st. cuz im meetin my fren. but most prob sld be able to make it."

WOOH OH!!!!!
in da end, all of them made it!! haha.
like FINALLY.
trust mi. we've known one another since DEC 2005 and tat's da 1st tym 4 of us went out together. it's like one yr ++ can. LOL.

gonna graduate soon. in few mths' tym.
soon all of us will be pursuin own careers. air-stewardness, accountant, fashion merchaniser, SIM, SMU, etc. if oni, da 4 of us can be in OTC for da last tym again.
BUT. i DOUBT SO. since someone has oledi backed out frm it.
no matter wad we said, she jus dun seems to understand wad we're tryin to tell her.
so ya. last week's my last resort oledi. after tat fone call to her at SU lounge, i tink im tired of askin her da same qtn again.
LET HER BE den.

BUT hopefully. or mayb. make it COMPLUSORY.
she better appear in TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC's SPROTS HALL on 10 APRIL.
if not, reali. she's gonna be GHOST forever.

BLAH BLAH BLAH.... =p










why am i typin these now when im supposed to work???
=.="
guess miss their craziness and unglam-ness too much. =D





i cant wait for da dae to cum in 2009.

if u pass mi a gun now, i tink da person'll be jus like da foto.
TRUST MY WORDS.

wad da......................FUCK.
early in da mornin received some piece of FUCKING SHIT.
for ppls who always read my blog sld no tat i use "FARK" instead of "FUCK".
so this proved how FUCKING pissed off i am now.

i dun care.
no image, NO IMAGE DEN!
and if u dunno who im tokin abt, den jus fark care tis post.

i'm been acceptin all those shit silently.
i dun even wan to reply or tok to him. cause ther's no pt to do so, since he always sae da same tink tat im freakin sick of it.
cuz i no if i were to open my mouth or treply anythin back, it'll be in a tone tat not everyone can stand it. and ther'll sure be some misunderstandin which i dun wan to create.
den. TODAY.
todae's reali my limit.
he has exceeded my limit.
STEP WAY WAY OVER IT.

stop tellin mi tat u've changed as compared to da past.
cuz da whole world's changin, not oni u, even i myself's changing.
mayb to you, i've changed to someone tat u cldnt even recognize anymore.
but u no wad?
MY FRENS DUN TINK SO.
they're so glad im like tat now.
i dun need u to teach mi how to choose frens.
i can CHOOSE my frens MYSELF. i no who am i supposed to hang out wit and who's not.
and i dun even tink u've got da rite to tell mi wad im supposed to do.
so wad if u're my BOYFREN once???
SO SO SO SO SO?????????????????????????
my other ex-bfs dun even care, so i dun tink u sld even.
ya. mayb this is ur character, ur personality, or da way u phase ur words, causin misunderstandings.
but let mi tell u for now, THIS IS DA WAY I TOK.
if u cant accpet it, den too bad.
i dun see a pt why u cant accept it when all my frens can.
dun u no MISS GUCCI LANG ENG XUAN GOT A SERIOUS ATTITUDE PROBLEM??

and to mi, IN MY OWN VIEW, u're jus changin to da worse.
i dun see a pt why u're still like tat.
so FUCKING CHILDISH n NAIVE.
always jumping into useless conclusions which were not even a fact at all.
all u no is listen to those FARKIN rumors, and disturb all those frens ard u.
give them some peace can!
dun cum to a pt when one dae, those frens of urs tat i dun even no, came straight to my face and ask mi to tok to you.
if u still cant accept mi as a fren, den jus FORGET IT.
i dun need someone like u to be a fren. i dun need someone tat drinks everydae. i dun need someone who tinks of nth except on how to get back da girl. i dun need someone who wan to be a gangster, which is sth tat i HATE TILL DA CORE. i dun need someone who's freakin jealous of da frens tt im hangin out wit.
CUZ IT'S TOTALLY, COMPLETELTY MEANINGLESS.

so jus stop giving mi all those shit nonsense!
dun try to push my luck again.
i'll make sure u suffer HELL. and i mean it.

i promise myself i wont cry for both of them anylonger.

and tat i wont corrupt my blog with all tis nonsense again. tis's da MAIN PURPOSE why i wan to change my blog.

but i did again.

it's so freakin random.

da tears jus flow down itself on da bus while da songs keep playin at da back.

tried to hide it frm everyone but it seems hard.

ther's no tissue at all.

im gettin more n more afraid of myself.

surpressin tat dark side.

tis qtn keep appearin.

"why did da both of them changed my life?"

a fling and a one-sided.

one changed it entirely.

one helped to cum out of it.

i tried not to tink abt it.

but tis few daes, both of them keep flashing thru my mind.

D/

he motivated mi in everythin i do.

and always came out wit unexpected outcomes n ans.

no matter wad i do and wad i promised myself, i'll forever break all those promises.

im not over his hot body.

it's his character.

K.

he brought mi out of da previous's life.

he noes im still livin under da previous's shadow.

and jus one scolding frm him, he made mi realize tat im livin my OWN LIFE instead of da other.

made mi realized ther's actually other ppls ard mi, rather den oni him.

im sick of myself.

i need my entertainer BADLY. =(

im weak, it's TRUE.

im jus scared to no the ans.

huian shot mi wit a QUESTION again todae.

"wad will happen if u tell him, or mayb. da other way rd?"

i'm still ponderin over it, even though an ans's given.

been havin bad stomachache at work for da past 3 daes.
practically i can run to da toilet to LS 3 or more times in jus one morning.
tink ther's sth wrong wit my body.
last week, i didnt even shit at all.
den tis week, i keep runnin to da toilet.
=.='
guess it's akk da food tat i've been eatin. UNHEALTHY.
tym to see doctor, i guess. =]

met up wit teck hui for awhile.
ya. like "AWHILE".
duno wad's wrong wit him.
since i dun wan to meet mongling so early,
so sort of sent him hm before goin town and ther's oso a straight n fast bus to town.

and jus becuz i shout out loud, "oh, u like to eat HONEY STARS cornflakes??",
he dun wan to buy oledi. LOL.
eat cornflakes got no wrong can. =.="
dne ther's tis group of ahlians.
okie. not reali AHLIANS. but jus those typically BUGIS-STREET girls. jus cant stand them.
why must they be dressed in "white TUBE TOP, white/black CARDIGAN, red SKINNY JEANS and m)phosis's SLIPPERS"
den i tot i was da oni one who's prejudiced towards them. in da end, he too!
to tink i still sae tat whole group of ppls were his frens.
WADEVEER~~

in da end they reali went to bugis can!
WTH.

met up wit da girl ltr on.
god. i cant imagine she actually waited for mi till she slept at da station la. hahaha.
forever been bullied by us.

anyway, tat's not da main pt.
supposedly i've to work yest. den when i woke up, jus dun have da mood to work at HD ltr on. but den force myself to accept da fact tt i've to work at nite.
den while on da way to PA, asked mongling why she didnt call mi as promised da dae befor,
in da end, i duno how we tok and tok and i jus REALI got no mood to go to HD anymore.
so ya. i no it's a little last min. but at tat moment i reali tink frens're more impt den earnin tat 24 bucks.
seems like i wont be stayin at HD for long, frm da way im workin now.
im gettin quite sick of it oledi. imagine everydae go to work AFTER WORK.
tat's SICK.
=.="

wadever. tat girl was touched till da max. cuz she didnt expect mi to actually gave up work becuz of her. hahahah..
i nv see any tears cum out can, TEE MONG LING.
=p

anyway, i haven even cum to da main pt yet.
she meet mi up to shu ku.
...
her story's darn long can. frm 7-11pm.
and ther's so many parts to it.
okie. in da middle of her story, i DID DIGRESS till nowhere la.
hahaha..
da PI SAI STORY!!!!!
=D
wadever.

duno wad's wrong wit her frens either.
puttin all da blame to her when it seems like it's not even her fault.
to make tinks worse, it's oni a small little matter, but i duno why in da world did her fren make a big fuss out it. as though like she jus kill someone and dun dare to admit it.
like WTH?!?!

PS. girl. no matter how u try to clear ur name in front of her, she oledi dun trust u and dun believe wadever u've said. so NO point explainin to her. jus IGNORE her nonsense. jus let her sent u LONG LONG SMS-es den. see oledi den press da button "DELETE". =D

to tanks mi for yest, she wrote tis for mi:
















hahahaha.
touched.





feel so wierd tat i didnt tok to u todae... why?

went back to sch for da OTC interview.
feel wierd with maybelin inteviewing us. cuz it's meant to be a proper interview.
but we've known one another for so long, so it's kinda strange when all of us became so serious.
LOL.

i miss takin random fotos in sch!!


tis is SOOOOOO random and yet, all of us were so satisfied at how da foto turn out to be.
=]

and along da walkway out, it reminds mi of maybelin takin tat SUPERWOMAN pose.
so we start to play again. LOL.
PLAY, PLAY and still PLAY.


as u can see frm da 1st foto, MISS GUCCI finally got cleveage!!
WOOHH~~
so they were like, "SHOW OFF UR FAKE BOOBS!!"


and tis woman, i tink her hands's a little retard, she dun even no how to place them.
LOL.


SEE KWEE TAN and her signature pose. =]



den to bedok 85 to eat wit huian n maybelin.


YES! MY long-lost BA CUO MEE!!!!!
WOOH!!!!
real long-lost. so long nv eat.
tok crap for a while. and from all tis crappy stuff, i've got a BGA(BOYFREN-GIRLFREN AGENCY) now.
why??


CUZ EVERYONE JUS LIKE TO COMPLAIN TO MI, "GUCCI, I NEED A GF/BF~~~".
=.="
as though i can help them find one when i myself cant even. LOL.
and becuz i've been sms-in non-stop to teck hui, they're freakin jealous abt it and asked mi to call him straight away.
haahaha.... darn funny can.
da way they tok to him.
jus like how girls get jealous when their bf keep on SMS-in.
i tink both of them are reali treatin mi as their BF. as in they were like,

M: "eh, u're da big one, im da small one, okie??"
H: "den she's urs for 1,3,5. mine for 2,4,6. and sun let her off for teck hui la."

BLOODY ASREHOLE.

god. im still darn freakin straight can.
or. am i???
wahahahahahhaahhahahahaha..
mayb not, ever since i've cut my hair. =P


PS. girls. ther's reali nth goin on. TRUST MI!
its jus like huian n ryan, maybelin n steven can.
i oni tink. but tat doesnt mean anythin. =)

been some tym since i've went bedok and tampines. i mean, everythin's still da same, but somehow jus miss those daes when i've got long breaks in between or after sch. these 2 places wld be wher i hang out most of da tym.
i still miss BEDOK RESERVIOR da most.
da PEACEFUL-NESS, da WATER, da SHELTER, da GRASSPATACH, da SKY, etc...
okie. wadever. im forever digrssing to nowhere.
=D

I CANT WAIT TO GO BACK SCH!!
*STOMP STOMP STOMP*


decided to send huian hm 1st. so took bus all da bus to yishun.
ryan called along da way. been a long long tym since i've seen and heard frm tat guy.
haha. da guy with da most sweaty palms tat da whole spore can rain if he was to put his hands on da map. tat was claimed by dan.
whahahaha.
anyway, tok to him for awhile.
gosh. he cant even recognise my voice. and i've to sae "chicken wings and chicken breast" den he start to recognize it's mi. LOl.
i still rmb how he always appear out of nowher when im out wit huian.
but now, he's in NS oledi.
too bad.
i wonder how's his palms now. maybe still raining. LOL

anyway, here cums da interesting part of da journey.
MY GOD. i duno why, these few daes im havin bad encounters in da bus. and test's da worst! and here goes our TRAMAUTISING MOMENTS...

1st. ther's tis cina guy who keep lookin at us while we're tokin, as though he was one of da group. and reali, we cldnt stand tat kind of feelin. it's freakin wierd and scary. and even when he alighted frm da bus, he's still lookin at us frm afar. WTH.

den, few bus stops ltr came tis woman who chose to sit beside mi. it's like im oledi sttin at da last row and she still wan to squeeze wit mi. nvm. tat's not da MAIN POINT. den she started to dig her nose. ya. DIGGING FURIOUSLY as though ther's gold in her nose. after diggin, she starts to flip her hair and scratch her body, AND START DIGGING HER NOSE AGAIN. ARGH!!!! imagine she dig for da whole journey to yishun can. jus cant stand tis type of person. UNCIVILISED and NO IMAGE! and tanks to maybelin's encounter of PI SAI can. i got so scared of da woman. start to tink da left side of mi's freakin itchy and so scared of havin her pi sai in my hair.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~~~~

next tym if i see someone dig his/her nose in front of mi again, i'll make his/her tat finger's GONE!
=x

ENOUGH of tat disgustin woman. da moment she's went to da front seat, cam-whoring starts.. =)








tis proves how lovin are they..
LOL.










wad a STUPID expression.
hahahaha...



too bad tat GHOST was not there as usual....

wad da..
so freakin bored at hm.
tanks to my mum.
cheat my feelins can.
supposedly can go out wit 2 of my frens for da whole dae.
den she asked mi to acc to some places.
in da end when i reached hm, i've been doin household chores non-stop and den she sae,


"i'm lazy to go anywher oledi."


BASKET.
so i told my fren abt it.
in da end, one's goin out wit her frens and da other's goin out wit his parents.
ARGH!!!



wad a saturday im goin to spend.
ROTTING AT HOME.





I FEEL SO CHEATED.

mood swings big tym yest.
dun ask why. cuz if i no da reason, i'll surely sae.
but da prob is i dun even no can.
ownself gettin irritated and frustrated over NOTHING.
arsehole. even huian got a shock of it.
and i blame it on EVERYTHING.
from da com to da bus driver to da hawker center to EVERYONE.
except blaming it on mi.
WADEVER~~

anyway.
mood reali swings.
went to bugis during lunch. and i tink im gonna be sick of tat place soon. it's like i go there almost everydae for lunch. and due to da scorchin sun, we always went to da 2nd floor for AIR-CONDITIONED shelter. ther's no ppls there anyway, those ah lians/ah bengs and shops dun open so early.
and den cam-whoring bites in...





went off early from work.
god. tat bus 14 was freakin long n slow.
with all those sec sch kids makin noises, as though it's their own house. makin mi cldnt even slp at all.
BLOODY SHIT them!

went for dinner after work on wed with teck hui.
tat idiot went all da way to jurong east jus to play mahjong can. CRAZY.
and tat jeremy. FOREVER ps-in mi at da very last min.
i'll kill him one dae.
hahahaha..

anyway, supposedly i wanted to eat katong laska.
and i've ever stepped into katong befor, and since kallang's oni a few bus stops away, decided asked him to bring mi ard.
in da end, i was brought to tis FAST FOOD RESTAURUANT call KFC jus somewher near kallang stadium. jus becuz ther's free flow of drinks over there. =.="
I FEEL SO CHEATED.

tat idiot's no gentleman at all.
ask him open da door for mi. in da end. ya. he did open. but he went in 1st.
duno wad's wrong wif him.
den came tis bloody irritatin and hungry cat tat keep on walkin up and down our seats.
i cant even sit down and eat. practically i dun even wan to move. scared it'll jus suddenly turn ard n attack mi.

and u no wad? it jus happen tat on sundae, da freakin movie tat's still hauntin mi till now was airin on channel 5. and my didi purposely dun wan to change da channel when da scene appear.
ARGH...
other ppls will oni hide behind da pillows in horror movie, but i didnt even hide. instead, i hid when tat farkin disgustin scene came.
=.="

okie. enough of digressin.
tat cat scared da freak out of mi.
and deja vu happen. i've dreamt of tat scene befor.
MUMMY~~~~~


anyway, walked to somewher near da indoor stadium.
saw all kinds of interestin things along da way.
couples tryin to do some unlimited stuff. not one, but more den tat.
den ther's DRAGONBOAT trg in da dark dark nite.
as though they can see anythin.

TH: "eh, u can see any handsome guys or pretty girls anot?"

G: ... 1st, it's freakin dark now. 2nd, they themselves are so dark oledi. so wad do u tink?

=.="

but see those DB-ers reminds mi of someone else.
who got da darn hot body and join da MO-DEL-ING line becuz of tis CCA
but ya la. his body is reali darn hot.
hahahahaahah...
wadever~~

tok quite a while. for a few hrs. didnt expect both of us can actually tok so much.
LOL. he seems firm on givin up oledi. dunno wad's wrong wit him. and anyway, it's his decision, not mine. so i've got no comments =]

PEOPLE DO CHANGE huh??
ya. i myself have changed too. realized tat im more concerned to those beside mi. no longer ignorin them. and no longer throwin tantrums anylonger.
=]

tat's one gd tink.

some fotos we took on da bridge.
apparently both of us need da toilet URGENTLY. but was too amused by the scenary on da bridge and for a moment, we've forgotten abt our full bladder. hahaha..

it's a nice place to chill out at though. nice scene and weather. =D

tis is meant to be posted TWO DAES AGO. but tanks to BLOGGER.

okie.

i dunoo why. suddenly i was SUPER DUPER busy straight after lunch.
supervisor wanted da ppt befor her meetin which is at 3.
den when she came out, i've to call da designers regarding da amendments IMMEDIATELY.
den while im doin, another came to ask mi to draw a layout.
den i've to call 114 ppls tellin them they've won some stuff.
yes. ONE HUNDRED AND FOURTEEN ppls. no kididn.
LOL.
but it's still much better den sittin here and surfin blogs and facebook.
hahah..
wadever~


anyway, worked at CP last nite. god. tat santa tot it was da 1st tym i stepped into CP.
like CUM ON... last tym, i always go there for fun can.
and joanne, jeanne and jarvis popped by. ON PURPOSE. to agiate tat indian woman.
u sld see her expression when she sees them and realized that we're actually frens.
and still teach mi wad im supposed to do durin workin hrs.
i was like, =.="

she ask mi. "so how long have u work in HD?"

"erm... 2 yrs plus."

*shockin face*

very shockin meh? i dun even tink so can. 2 yrs are still peanuts la.
hahaaha...

and i tink she dun like mi.
why??

1. i dun wear GLOVES.
2. i no da EX-STAFF OF HD-CP who happen to be ppls that she dun like.
3. i worked at hilton, a place wher she 1st came frm and hate it.
4. i didnt listen to wadever she saes.

and UNFORTUNATELY, da whole of CP has to stop power supply, so as usual, have to remove everythin tat'll melt in da shop. god. alot can. their fruits like, NO NEED MONEY can. den tat roland came, and he was like "so wad do u tink of CP?"

"CENTERPOINT SUCKS."

"oh reali? okie. so i shall let u work here permanmently okie? or u wan to change ur ans?"

".... sorry. i've got no comments."

like wth. now where in da world they wan to transfer mi to now. no way am i goin to work at CP PERMANENTLY. i'll resign.

teck hui happen to be workin yest, so he waited for mi. since we're goin to da same place to take bus home. been sometym since i've tok to him. and he seems to have lots of probs. wit girls as usual. dunno why he and jeremy always like to ask mi for girls' opinion. like as though im an expert.
haha...
i cant even solve my own probs can. and he told mi abt someone too. abt wad he's been doin recently.

basket. i've been tolerating him, tryin to ignore all his nonsense wit silence. and it's oledi a miracle tat i can tolerate for so long. esp since im such a hot-tempered person. but tis person's reali gettin on my nerves.i reali dunno wad's wrong with him.
ppls have been tellin mi tinks abt him. 1st. he drink almost everydae. den he became over-sensitive. jus over a plain MSN nick.
wtf.
he's reali doin all kinds of stupid and childish tinks. u ppls have been tellin mi to stop him frm doing all tis. but i said for da last tym. "NO MATTER WAD I SAY, HE DUN EVEN LISTEN. SO WAD'S DA POINT OF TELLIN HIM? HE'S JUS TREATIN MY WORDS AS AIR."
it's oni a relationship, and he cldnt even take it. and it's oledi been like 2 mths since da brerakup. wad else is he expectin frm mi? i reali reali pity da nxt girl in his life. mayb he'll even commit suicide for her.
=.="

maybe, im able to let it go lightly. maybe it's becuz of my happy-go-lucky character.
okie. i admit. for da 1st 2 weeks after da breakup. im farkin emo over it. den i get to no some truth, and reality started to surface. so i've stopped havin hopes in it. i rather live life like tat, even though my heart's yearnin for another one.
=D

anyway, enough of this shitty person.
back to topic.
teck hui's freakin frustated over his girl. it jus keep on remindin mi of how one-sided is mine to derek. IDIOT. and yet, he's givin up so soon. like less than a mth since he confessed.
GUYS. =.="
and he's freakin jealous can. jus OVER A VESPA.
hahahahaa..
i jus like to tease him abt tat VESPA tingy.
and at least, after 2 daes of jokes and nonsense frm MISS GUCCI, he seems to be better now.
LOl. im forever da one bringing entertainment and joy to others when they're down. changing their mood in a few moments.

still rmb lettin tt chou xueli to bite and hit mi wit her file when she's freakin pissed off over some stuff.
and dearest too. lettin her vent out her anger whenever she quarrelled with her bf.
and huian too. always tryin to bring her out of her own world.

when will it be da other way when i need one?

my post's gettin more n more lengthy.

i cant blog anythin out at PA can.
basket.

someone told mi tat he noes who's derek and saw him at somewhere befor.
i was like "?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!??!!"
how can tat be?
cuz he saw tat small little dp in my msn, da foto when we took at zouk.
and jus a look at it, he told mi tat he saw him before.

is he so PROMINENT tat in such a small little space, he's still recognizable?
wth.

and YES.
1st impression tat derek gave him was "he's so act cool." and "those type of guys wherby girls will go gaga over him."
oh pls. an act cool person saein another one act cool.
=.="

anyway, i tink he sae him at some fair at expo.
and i guess derek's was there to do some modellin jobs again.
i dunno la.

i said, he's always givin ppls tat wrong impression of him, and tat he's not like wad he seems to be.

and tis fren of mine actually tot tat i took a foto wit him, FOR DA SAKE OF TAKING WIT HIM.
tinkin tat i duno him at all.
tinkin tat im jus takin fotos wit a MODEL.
tinkin tat im oni havin a crush on him cuz he got a hot body tat girls drool on.
tinkin tat we're not frm da same sch.


omg. CUM ON!!
how i wish i duno him can.
ahahaha...


over a bet of MAC CHICKEN MEAL and i've got myself so into him.
over a bloodly full of FATE and CHEMISTRY and SAME INTEREST, i fall for him.
but, NO REGRETS since da dae i met him. =]
his body's still freakin HOT!
wahahaha.
reminds mi of seein kaiming on tat mac's commerical.
LOL.

tis cumin OTc, i wonder if steven, kaiming, rat, and him's gooin anot?
they better do.
cuz...

steven - my entertainer.
kaiming - da there-but-not-there sunshine boy.
rat - my scandal.
derek - my EYE-CANDY!!
=D

why am i always tokin abt DEREK LEE FENG CHENG nowadays?!?!

it's so wierd.
im actually helpin someone wit love problems.
when i myself cant even handle it.

to tink i can actually provide advice.
it's so freakin wierd.
especially since its...

and somehow, some ppls see mi in a different light.
i didnt no tat my looks can be so deceiving tat ppls actually dun even no my actual person.
i mean like, close frens no who i am.
ppls like dearest and huian.

i duno. they seems to no wad im tinkin.
dearest always had da freakiest telepathy wit mi, and always tink wad im tinkin.
so wadever i told her, she jus understand how i feel and wad im goin to sae da nxt sec.

den huian too.
maybe she dun reali understand wad im tokin sometimes, due to da fact tat she's always living in her own world.
but whenever she ask mi one qtn, i'll keep on ponder over it.
becuz tat one qtn can jus linger in my mind, makin mi to tink of it seriously.

"tat derek's qtn is still in my mind."

okie. i've drifted too far away.
most ppls oni no mi for:

1. my name is GUCCI.
2. im frm TP, DEISGN. =.="
3. i work in HD.
4. i stay in amk.
5. i like to fully uterlize my bus concession.
6. i hate pink till da max
7. i dun belong to da demure, sweet, cute, soft-spoken caterory of girls.

but behind all this, they didnt no ther's another mi.
da self tat oni a few see before.


LOOKS ARE SO FREAKIN DECEIVING.

no wonder ben will sae he learn new things abt mi whenever we go out together.
hhaha...
miss those daes when cher, rach, dee, sam, qn, ben and i went out together.
SOO RANDOM. =p


i STILL CANT believe i've got DECEIVING LOOKS!
argh...

so now. i've got:

1. fake NAME.
2. fake Boobs.
3. fake prada bag.
4. fake design student.
5. fake butch's identity.

and now?

6. FAKE LOOKS!!!

wth.
so which part of mi is REAL, may i no?

he reminds mi of....

CHU-CO-LAT.

his lip piercings, his cant be seen eyes and his long fringe.

it's da same feelin.
da same when i 1st no who is chu-co-lat.

jealousy and hopeless cums into mind 1st.
im always da later one.

and i hate da feelin of losin out.

maybe.
it's not wad i wan actually.

maybe.
tym can help a little more again. since it's oni a moment of infautation.
not da real tink.
jus like how i always react whenever i see my eye-candies.

maybe.
da fren's right. nobody noes wad will happen in da future.
but all i can confirm is tat, IT'S NOT NOW.

maybe.
derek's still da ....

maybe.
MAYBE.

cant wait for sch to starts.
cuz i wont have da tym to tink of all tis shit any longer.


WADEVER~~~~!

anyway, im da oni one tt went to attachment todae.
apparently one reach home at 7AM n da other dun wan to cum, partly due to da rain.
so ya. im all alone at work.
and i actually did serious work for da whole morning.
initally didnt wan to go for lunch.
but my supervisor ask mi to cum along, so ya.

wad a dae.

i'm FARKIN bored.
argh...
no one cumin up to m it complain. and i've got no one to complain to.
and tat bloodly frenster cant even do anythin, even if i've unblocked it.
can someone gave mi another URL to unblock it.
den ther's no motivation to work any longer after lunch.
hands are freakin cold to move, thanks to tat air con diagonlly above mi.

one more hr to 6pm.
and IM GOIN HOME.
ya. straight HOME.
mondae blues forever. no mood to go anywher.
and i jus received a call to ask mi to work at centrepoint tml.
HELLO. now im wad?
a MAKE-SHIFT SUPERVISOR?
a MOVE-ALL-OVER-DA-ISLAND SUPERVISOR??
wth.
PISSIN mi off on da first dae of the week oledi.


tis post have been edit THREE TIMES in a day.

as u can see.
i've changed my blog.

reason being:

1. cant change to XANGA. too complicated.
2. dun like LIVEJOURNAL either.
3. sick n tired of da 1st one.
4. sick of da "DARKIE-BRIGHTNESS" name.
5. "HIGH CLASS PUPPET" sounds more like mi now. FAKE.
6. lazy to find blogskins.
7. create own skin better. PLAIN & SIMPLE.


WADEVER~~
i tink i'll get sick of tis again SOON.
LOL.