iamGUCCI

was browsing thru old blog.
seems like it has becum a monthly tingy huh??
when ther's nth to do at work.
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den ther's sth call CMS now. so..

while readin thru, babe's qtn keep flashin back into my mind.

"why is that im so in love with that someone at tat tym?"

he's not a ideal one tt im lookin for. TOTALLY 100% not.

one tink.
LOVE IS FARKINGLY BLIND.
cant see reality at all.
and i realized something.
u fall in love easily, but when it's tym to let go and forget, it's jus so difficult.
da total opposite.
and it's jus so difficult to tell urself to let go.

was tokin to dearest jus now. like finally i told her abt it. and she's forever happy with my decision. hoping to see him in person asap. told her i wan to settle down, as in a seriouos relationship oledi. and tat im scared history will repeat again.
but she told mi to have confidence in both him n myself.
but...
i duno. i mean im happy wit wad i have now. happiness filling up da air and stuff and like tat. but.
jus feel so scared. like i'll lose him one dae.
i no tis dae will not cum. but like i've said. I DONT KNOW.

whenever it cums to tis, im jus not myself again. like losing all those confidence tt i once used to have.


suddenly jus feel like. pullin myself away frm all tis shit. breaking away from it.
but can i??

cant sense ur PRESENCE.