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celebrated a belated bdae for teck hui wit jeremy and his sister.
actually seen her sis before. thru sth call "FRENSTER".
den got some interestin issue happen befor.
her name??
"JEREMY'S SISTER".
whaaha. i cant rmb la. cuz they were like, "tis is his sister, ........."
it jus happen tt i cant hear da name.
WADEVER~~~
anyway, went to eat katong laksa. like FINALLY, they brought mi to eat there. WOOH OH~~
da real one can. haha. NICE. veri NICE. =)
seems like i've been hangin ard tt area ever since i started workin at PA.
LOL.
ONE LAST MONTH TO ENJOY KATONG OLEDI. =p
den i'll be out of there!!
hahaahaha...
den went to jeremy's house to slack for awhile. i didnt no his house is jus RIGHT RIGHT behind PP. and ther's a HINDU temple beside it. so can i assume NEXT THURSDAE, his house will be flooded with BLACKS???
whhahahaahahahhahahhahaah...
JOKE.
veri long nv tok to him oledi. and he's still so full of crap.
and i guess both of them will be expectin da later part of tis post anyway.
wahahah.
tanks to tt jeremy. i tink we ran out of topics to tok abt. so he wanted to tok abt "XIN SHI".
LOL.
darn funny can.
and actually he had 2 qtns to ask mi oni.
=.=" SICK.
i tink i'll give him a proper ans for da FIRST qtn over here den.
=D
"there's feelins more den jus frens. for tat, i can sae it for sure. MAYB Im saein for myself. not HIM. =D but ther's alot of unseens stuff blocking da 2 of us. i duno wad's that, but they seems to be blocking everythin, causin all kinds of barriers to carry on. and i can guarantee for sure, mine is confirm not all abt DEREK. mayb for him, it's ALICE. mayb. i dun wan any commitment yet my heart's not saein da same tink. contradictin huh?? or mayb, both of us choose not to move on and jus stay like wad it is now. and all i can sae is im afraid to initate anythin ANYMORE. we shall see wad da future says den. =)"
ONE MONTH.
tink teck hui will be tinkin, "WAD ONE MTH IS DA BOTH THEM TOKIN ABT?!?!?!!?"
whahaah....
den they wanted mi to sae abt their strengths/weaknessness.
okie. all of us. tat's kinda wierd though.
cuz normally, i'll jus sae all tis randomly,
impromt, without tinkin. but now, i've to tink.
tink of all those words to describe. and my vocab belongs to da PRIVATE LIMTIED COMPANY. =.="
and u no wad?
da assumed personality was sO WELL-BUILD by miss gucci.
"talkative, not da petty type, independent, "when ther's she, u wont feel alone." etc.etc"
if i sae tat's not mi, wld u believe? cuZ i dun even who i am myself. =D
lost.
and BASKET.
sae wad "im those holding on to tinks when i no ther's no more hope in it."
still use one word to describe "EVIL."
and wad "i carry a knife all ard and will kill whoever i see."
MUMMY~~~~~
when am i evil befor?
im such a gd girl.
haha.
i dun kill ppls, i dun do stupid tinks. =D
and trust mi, frens.
im reali not as impatient and rash as in da past oledi.
cuz u guys oni no mi better after da break-up. but before tat im jus like wad u ppls sae of my weaknessness. haha.
i no how to tink properly for now, and will oni do tinks tat i tink it's good for everyone.
den da emo bug bites.
jus suddenly dun feel like goin hm so early. jus wan to be alone for Awhile and sort stuff out. so went to walk along da kallang river. IT'S FREAKIN quiet. so of cuz da emo bug will bite.
but so many bundeis. =.="
sit at one of da side, lookin at da whole scenary, minus away all those BUNDEIs pls.
jus feel tat da bloody FATE is playin wit mi again.
bringing mi to da bloody place which seems to make everythin so clear, straight to my face.
DO YOU NEED TO MAKE THINGS SO CLEAR TO ME, FATE??
it's like everywher i turn to, all kinds of stuff jus came to my mind.
da reflection of everythin on da water and its actual tink.
all along i've been livin in fantasy, it's tym to get out of da water n jus live in REALITY.
den on my left was brightly lit. while my right side was DARK. total DARKNESS.
and im sittin in da middle. dun even wher i belongs to.
everyone will tink i'll of cuz choose my left side. cuz tat's mi. but tat's wad u ppls tink, not ME. i wan to choose myself.
and becuz some ppls ask mi tat qtn again.
"ARE U STILL THINKIN OF DEREK?"
how many ppls wan to ask mi, may i no?
MAYBELIN, HUI AN, MONGLING, DEAREST, STEVEN, RAT, CHERILYN, KENNY, JY, ETC.
i'll sae for one last tym.
I AM NOT.
it's not easy to forget can. i mean, u ppls no mi for sometym, so u sld no sometym i dun forget stuff so easily. so small little details i'll rmb too. but this is a HUMAN.
and u sld no how long i took jus to tell myself to give up.
even after da confession, i still didnt give up.
but i oledi sae befor. esp to huian n maybelin.
ever since da ZOUK's event, i've totally given up everythin on him and move on.
since he can treat mi as his fren, why cant i?
ya i no. sometym i'll still tok abt him. but he's still my fren rite?
cant i tok abt my fren when his life's so interesting? =)
and trust mi, it's been MONTHS since i've tok to him. both of us are so busyin wit our own lives, so wad do u tink.?
i mean, it's like. no matter how many tyms i've said, u ppls jus like to ask mi da same old qtn. sometym i feel so sick jus to giv an ans.
i've reali sort things out.
both of us are livin in different worlds. and i dun wan to carry on everythin jus becuz of him. i rather do it for myself.
MAYBE. it's tym to let go everythin and jus move on. I WILL.
didnt i told you to go away, FATE?
im still lovin tis foto...
becuz of my red flats of cuz. hahaaah.
no la. lookin at da foto reminds mi of wad i've told him on sundae.
in da end, it turn out to be ownself lookin at da foto. hhaah.
JOKE.
he jus make mi realized im not alone last nite.
with his continuous calls. =)
nxt tym, i tink i'll jus switch off my fone. LOL.
but tanks anyway! =D
CONTENTED WITH LIFE NOW.
WORTH-IT????
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